I used to be mildly homophobic before meeting you. I’m not anymore. Just thought you’d want to know.
This actually makes me very sad. I hate knowing that people, at any point in time, were homophobic. I’ve just never understood homophobia. I’m just very glad your opinion has changed.
your one of the coolest gay kids i know!
i miss hanging out with you..movie day soon?
then i can play with your rubix cube!
and we can talk about bajingas and dabbling
all the good stuff :}
Haha, thank you! I miss you. We need to hang out so badly. You, Kait, and I are going to have a movie day soon. We can have completely inappropriate conversations about dabbling bajingas and twiddling twaddles.
What was your favorite year in school? (K-8)
Just K-8? Oh, man. I don’t know. I really don’t remember much of my elementary school life. I had a really good 8th grade year, but I think my favorite was 4th grade. I had a fantastic teacher, Mr. Malone, and I felt so mature knowing that I was in the oldest grade at my school. I think that was the first time I really felt like I was growing up in some form. Also, that was the year that my brother was born.
what is the most important thing you’ve ever learned?
This is hard. I’m only 17 years old, and I have a lot to learn still. So far, I’ve learned some good lessons, and there are some that I should have already learned that I can’t get through my thick skull. But, of the things I’ve learned, I really think the most important thing is that I know I can’t change other people. I will never be able to be in someone else’s head controlling their thoughts or actions. I will not be able to control their opinions or views. I shouldn’t worry about what other people think because that person is not me. If a person doesn’t agree with me, then we agree to disagree and that’s the end of it. If they will not agree to disagree, then I will leave it at that and move on because there’s a chance that they aren’t worth fighting with if they aren’t mature enough to accept that we cannot change one another. So, in all, the most important thing I’ve learned is that each person is an individual entitles to respectable opinions, and I shouldn’t worry about what anyone else thinks as long as it doesn’t directly affect me negatively.
What is the meaning of life, in your opinion?
I don’t think there is one. Not everything has to have a purpose. I think we’re here by a series of very random, very interesting coincidences. I don’t believe in god or in an after life. I don’t believe that anything we do here matters at all. I enjoy life, and I basically do what I want because I know that one day, I’ll be dead and I’ll never have to think about it again.
Would you ever get a tattoo? What would you get?
On my next birthday, I am turning 18 and I plan on getting a tattoo on that day.
You may or may not know, I lost a friend on October 17th of this year. She was an amazing person. I wasn’t as close to her as some of my friends were, but she made an impact. I, and everyone else that was affected, really miss her. At her funeral, the last song they played was “How To Save A Life” by The Fray. I’m going to get the chorus of that song tattood on my right side/ribs.
Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness, and I would have stayed up with you all night had I known how to save a life.
Which year in highschool is/was your favorite? Why?
I’ve liked Senior year more than any other year I’ve been in school. I’m so close to leaving everyone and everything I know, but this year has been so generally pleasant so far. It might be because I’m not actually taking hard classes, but I don’t know. Being a Senior, I just feel so accomplished. I might also just be on a seniority power strike because I’m the highest class. But this year has definitely blown all the other ones out of the water.
i have dated lots of guys, and they just don’t cut it for me. i’ve been in love once, and it was with a girl. i haven’t tried with anyone else of the same sex, but i wonder if i should. how did you realize that you were lesbian?
If you want to, you should do it. Don’t hold back on what you want to do. As long as someone makes you happy, that’s all that matters.
I’ve almost always known that I was gay in some form. Since I was young, the thought of being with another girl fascinated me. I’ve been in relationships with guys before, too. I’ve found that I would just rather date girls, but that’s not to say that if I met a guy who made me feel like I need to feel to be in a relationship, I wouldn’t be with him simply because he was a male. I remember the first girl I ever had a crush on, and that really made a difference in realizing that I just needed to be who I was because my feelings weren’t going to change.
So, be who you are. If you want to date a girl, then try and go for it. If it doesn’t work out, then so be it. Just don’t hold back.
Generally, do you enjoy your life?
In a very, very general way, yes. I enjoy life itself. I like being alive. I like waking up. But then again, I don’t think that matters at all because I don’t really think life actually matters. I don’t mean that in a way that I’m going to kill myself because I hate everything. I just think that we don’t have a reason to be here, but if I’m going to be here, I’m going to enjoy it. Sometimes things suck, and sometimes things get me down, but I know that I’ll bounce back.
What’s the worst thing you’ve ever forgiven someone for?
I don’t forgive people after I’m seriously, honestly hurt. That sounds awful, but I just can’t find it in me to let go. I will say that I’ve forgiven certain people, but in reality, the grudge is still there and I’m still as angry as the moment I found out that I had been deceived or lied to. It still stings to think about, and it still makes my chest heavy.
